There is Nothing To Be Said

1.

sometimes there is nothing to be said. sometimes nothing should be said.

i just want to find someone who won't run away. someone to look me in the

eyes & tell me it's okay that things don't always go right. that this is how life works,

& how it will always work. that it's not going to be easy.

today, tomorrow, the next day, but it will somehow get better.

2.

i know i'm not easy to understand. i keep a lot inside & i'm also not the easiest

person to read. that's okay because even though there is a lot about me you will

never know, there's surely a hell of a lot about me that you can learn to love.

3.

i feel that i’m finally growing weary of waiting to be consumed by you.

4.

the best way to behave is not to.

5.

isn't it ironic?

we ignore the ones who adore us, adore the ones who ignore us,

love the ones who hurt us, & hurt the ones that love us.

6.

if your heart is nowhere in it, i don't want it for a minute.

7.

i want to get to the point where no matter what happens,

 no matter how long we go without being together,

no matter how many fights we get in;

where all we need is a kiss & suddenly we remember why we love each other so much.

8.

& you get to a point where you stop feeling sorry for yourself.

you realize no one's going to save you, so you have to save yourself.

you turn your life around, not knowing where you're going,

just knowing that you'll do anything, anything to be happy again.

9.

you have no idea what it's like to be hours away

from the only thing that makes you want to wake up in the morning.

10.

crying doesn't indicate that you're weak.

since birth, it has always been a sign that you're alive.

11.

the reason i am still so attached to you is because i've never felt that way about anyone.

cliché, right? well, i'm serious. to this day, i would take you back.

i would take back all the lack of communication & all the bullshit you pull.

i would deal with your stubborn mind & closed heart.

so, tell me why, out of all the prince charming’s,

why did i chose the most uncharming of them all?

12.

it's just hard, you know? i look at you, & it hurts

so much to know that we can't be together.

13.

when things go wrong, don’t go with them.

14.

for once in the longest time, i'm happy.

at this very moment, there is nothing i would change about my life.

when you accept the past for what it is, you can finally enjoy your future.

15.

you have no idea what i’ve been through,

the places i’ve seen, the people i’ve met & lost.

don’t even try to pretend you do. it’ll just make you look stupid.

16.

so, i guess we are who we are for alot of reasons. & maybe we'll never know most of them. but even if we don't have the power to choose where we come from, we can still choose where we go  from there.

we can still do things. & we can try  to feel okay about them.

17.

but it's strange, when you've always been told something is true, like the moon will come back.

you need proof. & while you wait, you feel the entire balance of your world just tipping. it's crazy.

but when it's over, & it does come back, that's the best, because it's all you want, everything narrows to just that. it's this great rush, like for that one second everything's okay with the world  again. it's amazing.

18.

you give anything for it.

sometimes you give everything.

but sometimes it's just not enough.

19.

that was so much like him,

just to come over here on a totally random night

& after barely speaking to me for months and months,

just pick up where he left off completely messing with my mind

20.

“I’m not afraid of death; I just don’t want to be there when it happens.”